Thursday, July 30, 2015

Trying Not To Fall Into a Black Hole

I'm not feeling this at all today. Yesterday was a spectacularly bad day, and I'm still feeling it. I consider it a major accomplishment to write this much today.

I've been having some health problems for a couple of months now, and they've been getting me very down.  I've been fighting to not fall into depression because of them. It's not just the problems directly, it's that I finally felt I was on the right track to losing all the weight I need to lose, and that's been totally derailed by the fact that I can't exert any effort without being physically ill.  I can't even mentally concentrate for very long without feeling nauseous.  It's not good for my mini-habits, either.

But after multiple appointments with multiple doctors, they finally think they've figured it out.  I'm having minor surgery next Tuesday which I very much hope will take care of it. That hope is the only thing keeping me from serious depression.

I've been crying frequently and easily, seeing the positive less and the negative more, not enjoying things like I had been, and so on.  It's just too easy to despair.

My DH has been completely wonderful and fully supportive.  I really don't know what I would have done without him.  I love you, Sweetie!

I realize this post is disjointed, but I just don't have the heart to try and clean it up.


4 comments:

Cousin Don said...

:(

CousinLinda said...

Thank you.

Itty Bitty Prints said...

Sweet Cousin, so sorry you are struggling. I have had a fairly good success, over the last few years, losing weight. It has helped my overall health immensely. If there is anything I can do to help you, please let me know. at the very least, I can be a great cheerleader! It is a long hard road, but completely and totally worth it. Hugs, Linda. I have felt, just like you described, in the past.

CousinLinda said...

Thank you, Lisa. I'm glad we were able to "talk" earlier.