Well, despite all my attempts to at least LIKE the heat, I was excited and happy this morning when it was actually chilly for the 1st time. My spirit just soared. Sigh.
I guess it's just how I'm built--try as I might, I can't help looking forward to fall and winter. Maybe if we end up with a pool or pond where I can swim in the next house it will help me enjoy hot weather more. The long, long winters here in Ontario (and my container garden) have at least taught me to enjoy spring, and that's a start!
Tomorrow I'll try and create a list of everything good about hot weather. Any suggestions?
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Friday, August 13, 2010
The Goddess
This comes from another prompt from Pagan Blog Prompts: The prompt was to share an image of how the Goddess looks to you. I opted for a description, instead.
The one thing consistent about how I see the the Goddess is that She is ALWAYS in the forest--a forest so old and thick that the backdrop of any vision I see of Her is always dark and solid-looking, alive with ancient trees and huge ferns. The occasional spectacular burst of wildflowers, or changing leaves, or pure white snow punctuate the landscape.
Sometimes She is walking a meandering path deep in the trees, only enough rays of sunlight filtering down to light that path. Or perhaps She is coming out of a small dwelling in a large clearing, looking up at the starlit sky. Often, She is sitting or standing in a small clearing beside water or ice, be it a stream or small pool, a well or a small waterfall. Occasionally She is walking under full sunlight in a high meadow, high walls of trees all 'round.
She tends to appear to me as either a woman of indistinct age, somewhere between 25 and 45, or a crone of very advanced age, more advanced than a mere human will ever see. I have only but rarely seen Her as a maiden, perhaps because I found this Path far beyond my own maiden days.
As the crone Her hair is white, and Her clothes somber. As the younger woman, Her hair is long and light brown or strawberry blonde, and Her clothing tends to be light--whites, creams, and occasionally the palest of greens. In either case, Her skirts are always long, and She usually wears a cloak, either of black, dark brown, or of a very dark green.
How do you see the Goddess, Dear Reader?
The one thing consistent about how I see the the Goddess is that She is ALWAYS in the forest--a forest so old and thick that the backdrop of any vision I see of Her is always dark and solid-looking, alive with ancient trees and huge ferns. The occasional spectacular burst of wildflowers, or changing leaves, or pure white snow punctuate the landscape.
Sometimes She is walking a meandering path deep in the trees, only enough rays of sunlight filtering down to light that path. Or perhaps She is coming out of a small dwelling in a large clearing, looking up at the starlit sky. Often, She is sitting or standing in a small clearing beside water or ice, be it a stream or small pool, a well or a small waterfall. Occasionally She is walking under full sunlight in a high meadow, high walls of trees all 'round.
She tends to appear to me as either a woman of indistinct age, somewhere between 25 and 45, or a crone of very advanced age, more advanced than a mere human will ever see. I have only but rarely seen Her as a maiden, perhaps because I found this Path far beyond my own maiden days.
As the crone Her hair is white, and Her clothes somber. As the younger woman, Her hair is long and light brown or strawberry blonde, and Her clothing tends to be light--whites, creams, and occasionally the palest of greens. In either case, Her skirts are always long, and She usually wears a cloak, either of black, dark brown, or of a very dark green.
How do you see the Goddess, Dear Reader?
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Lyme Disease in Canada
This is another post I didn't really want to write, but once again I've been stuttering in my posts because of avoiding it, so it's obviously something I need to get out. And I need to do it whether or not it is very upsetting and very difficult to write.
I've been suffering unusually frequent and unusually serious diseases and conditions for the past two years or so. I've been diagnosed with Clinical Depression, Anxiety Disorder, and, most recently, Fibromyalgia. I've been asked if I've had a heart attack due to the damage around my heart. (I haven't.) And before my DH heard a life-changing story on the radio, I thought I had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.
These, and others*, are all diseases that Lyme Disease (LD) can mimic. The Canadian Lyme Disease Foundation lists 76 symptoms associated with LD, many of them mimicking serious ailments, not all of which everyone gets. The Foundation claims that if you have 20 or more you are at serious risk of having LD. I personally have close to 30.
Open and shut case, right? Wrong. LD is controversial worldwide. Many doctors don't even recognize it as a disease. Here in Canada, the problem is twofold--doctors are resistant to acknowledge the disease, and when they do agree to look into it, they only perform the first level standard test for LD, the notoriously inaccurate ELISA test. Most of them won't even consider going on to more in-depth, more accurate tests.
The most common recommendation from patient advocates? Send your blood to be tested in a private lab in the States. The one I looked for performed five standard tests, continuing with another three if those were inconclusive. The price is about $500 US, and we'll have to pay for it ourselves, but it would be worth it. 2nd recommendation? See the one physician in all Ontario who is supposedly sympathetic to LD.
I was all set to try either of these recommendations when I ran into even more snags. The LD sympathetic doctor needs a referral from my doctor to see me. The lab in the States needs a request from a doctor to perform the tests, even if I'm the one paying for them. Neither of these things was particularly a problem--my family physician is, for the most part, really cool, and I figured that even if she herself doesn't believe I have LD, she wouldn't stop me from pursuing it on my own. So I call. Or, rather, my DH calls, since one of my LD symptoms involves hearing problems. At any rate, he finds out that I need to actually come in and see my doctor for either the referral or the request, it can't be done over the phone. Okay. No problem. BUT, my doctor is leaving for vacation tomorrow, and I can't get an appointment to see her until SEPTEMBER 10! Problem. You see, I think I'm in Stage 2 of the LD, and I don't know how long I've got until I move to Stage 3, which has some potentially serious side effects such as permanent arthritis and heart problems.
So, I took the Sept. 10th appointment, but in the meantime I will try and get an appointment with Dr. Maureen McShane, a New York physician who has had LD, and who doesn't require referrals. She is actually the woman my DH heard on the radio, which led him to put it all together and propose to me that I might have it.
In closing, Dear Readers, beware--You can contract LD anywhere in North America. The deer ticks that transmit it are also carried by birds, so you can be bitten even in the most urban areas furthest from known tick infestations Less than 50% of people notice the tick that gave them LD, and only about 30% get the recognized "bull's eye" rash. Stage 1 is relatively easy to treat, Stage 2 is debilitating and hard to diagnose, and Stage 3 is potentially life threatening.
*Juvenile Arthritis, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Reactive Arthritis, Infectious Arthritis, Osteoarthritis, Fibromyalgia, Raynaud's Syndrome, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Interstitial Cystis, Gastroesophageal Reflux Disease, Fifth Disease, Multiple Sclerosis, scleroderma, lupus, early ALS, early Alzheimers Disease, crohn's disease, ménières syndrome, reynaud's syndrome, sjogren's syndrome, irritable bowel syndrome, colitis, prostatitis, psychiatric disorders (bipolar, depression, etc.), encephalitis, sleep disorders, thyroid disease
I've been suffering unusually frequent and unusually serious diseases and conditions for the past two years or so. I've been diagnosed with Clinical Depression, Anxiety Disorder, and, most recently, Fibromyalgia. I've been asked if I've had a heart attack due to the damage around my heart. (I haven't.) And before my DH heard a life-changing story on the radio, I thought I had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.
These, and others*, are all diseases that Lyme Disease (LD) can mimic. The Canadian Lyme Disease Foundation lists 76 symptoms associated with LD, many of them mimicking serious ailments, not all of which everyone gets. The Foundation claims that if you have 20 or more you are at serious risk of having LD. I personally have close to 30.
Open and shut case, right? Wrong. LD is controversial worldwide. Many doctors don't even recognize it as a disease. Here in Canada, the problem is twofold--doctors are resistant to acknowledge the disease, and when they do agree to look into it, they only perform the first level standard test for LD, the notoriously inaccurate ELISA test. Most of them won't even consider going on to more in-depth, more accurate tests.
The most common recommendation from patient advocates? Send your blood to be tested in a private lab in the States. The one I looked for performed five standard tests, continuing with another three if those were inconclusive. The price is about $500 US, and we'll have to pay for it ourselves, but it would be worth it. 2nd recommendation? See the one physician in all Ontario who is supposedly sympathetic to LD.
I was all set to try either of these recommendations when I ran into even more snags. The LD sympathetic doctor needs a referral from my doctor to see me. The lab in the States needs a request from a doctor to perform the tests, even if I'm the one paying for them. Neither of these things was particularly a problem--my family physician is, for the most part, really cool, and I figured that even if she herself doesn't believe I have LD, she wouldn't stop me from pursuing it on my own. So I call. Or, rather, my DH calls, since one of my LD symptoms involves hearing problems. At any rate, he finds out that I need to actually come in and see my doctor for either the referral or the request, it can't be done over the phone. Okay. No problem. BUT, my doctor is leaving for vacation tomorrow, and I can't get an appointment to see her until SEPTEMBER 10! Problem. You see, I think I'm in Stage 2 of the LD, and I don't know how long I've got until I move to Stage 3, which has some potentially serious side effects such as permanent arthritis and heart problems.
So, I took the Sept. 10th appointment, but in the meantime I will try and get an appointment with Dr. Maureen McShane, a New York physician who has had LD, and who doesn't require referrals. She is actually the woman my DH heard on the radio, which led him to put it all together and propose to me that I might have it.
In closing, Dear Readers, beware--You can contract LD anywhere in North America. The deer ticks that transmit it are also carried by birds, so you can be bitten even in the most urban areas furthest from known tick infestations Less than 50% of people notice the tick that gave them LD, and only about 30% get the recognized "bull's eye" rash. Stage 1 is relatively easy to treat, Stage 2 is debilitating and hard to diagnose, and Stage 3 is potentially life threatening.
*Juvenile Arthritis, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Reactive Arthritis, Infectious Arthritis, Osteoarthritis, Fibromyalgia, Raynaud's Syndrome, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, Interstitial Cystis, Gastroesophageal Reflux Disease, Fifth Disease, Multiple Sclerosis, scleroderma, lupus, early ALS, early Alzheimers Disease, crohn's disease, ménières syndrome, reynaud's syndrome, sjogren's syndrome, irritable bowel syndrome, colitis, prostatitis, psychiatric disorders (bipolar, depression, etc.), encephalitis, sleep disorders, thyroid disease
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